Who are you????

Who are you????? I know, that is a question that you would like to ask me right. Who am I???? Its hard for me to explain to you because, I myself do not really know about myself. That is because what you think about yourself is not really what others will think about you. For you to really know about yourself, you need to ask people around you what do they really think about you. For example, I think myself as a very quiet person and a bit shy towards people, that is what I think about myself so I ask my friends about me and they say that I am loud and outgoing. Strange, it is quite the contradictory of what I really thought about myself. There is also some other answer to that question such as they say I am good and well mannered and also there some say that I am naughty and disrespectful towards others. It makes me want to laugh hearing what they would say about me because it is just the same as not knowing at all because after all sort of answers I became confuse about myself. Well maybe that is because the way I meet with different type of people. Usually I act according to the type of people or age of the people I am hanging out with, that is why there so many answer about what they think about me. I can hang out with anyone because I know how to communicate with different type of people. It is good to hang out with different type of people no matter they are good or bad because it can give you a valuable experience just to talk to them and listen to what they would say about they past life because there are usually advise to what they are telling you. For myself I did not have a very good life also in the past but to me it was a very valuable experience and lesson to me on how to live my life the way it suppose to be. This happen when I am still living in my hometown that is Kota Kinabalu, well as what they say, there is no place like home, my hometown is different from most of the cities or town here in Peninsula. Even though there is not much there in Kota Kinabalu because it is still developing but still it was fun to stay there because most of the people there are open minded and more social than most of the people I met here in peninsula. I have a lot of friends that I like to hang out with even with the bad ones. Well what can I say, this happen when I am at my teen age, what do you think would happen, I think you can figure out yourself. Just some advise from me, you can be friend with anyone you like but avoid anything bad that would influence you that can harm you in the future. Luckily for me I realize this quite soon and I was able to change my life before it is too late and look now I am studying in a university, not bad right. Just hoping that I do not make the same mistake twice. Enough about my history already, back to the main topic. Who are you?????? People might ask this question to me. Well my name is Joe and some things that is about me you can find in the story I wrote to you and if you want to know more sorry I cannot give it to you, try ask me yourself ahahaha. Well actually I am doing this as my assignment so not all of the above story about me is not really really or maybe true. So enjoy your life to the fullest and do more good things in your life because you only live once. Thank you.

To hell and back again

To depth of hell I go. Full of despair and sorrow. Truly from the bottom of my heart. This was not the life that I wanted for myself. But it was just to good that it is hard for me to refuse. Without any second I choose to stay there. For myself I wanted a change in my life. From the lameness of a normal life. Now I could do whatever I wanted. Without anyone ever try to stop me. This is the life the I have been wanted all this years. Rather than the life that I have been living all this while. Where it feels like being trapped inside a box. Where you cannot really move freely. And without own free will to do anything. And now I roam freely on this land. Doing whatever I desire the most. Feels like theres a wing behind my back. That can make me fly. After a long journey on my own. Through this path that i chose. Then I finally discovered. There's something missing in this life. I suddenly felt empty inside. But yet I ignored it. From time to time it's started to hurt. The burden get heavier and heavier by the day. Until the day that I felt like dying. There is no other choice for me. But just to wait for the end to come. Suddenly I cried and asked myself. Was it worth it all this while. Is it worth it to throw your life away. Just to have more fun in your life. Then with this broken wing I fly. To go back to where I belong before. From the point of no return. Finally I found the place that I belong. It seems that it's still not too late for me. Then the burden that I felt finally gone. And I felt a lot better. It's been a while now. Living a normal is not really that bad though. There are actually something there in this normal life. But you can't really see it. With your eye or with your hands. You just need to find it by yourself. Through pain and suffering. Because there's no easy way in this life. So just try harder so you can find it. Thats all I can say to you for tonight.

Broken Heart

Is this really my fate. To be lonely for what i have done. Please don't hate me for this. Why should it ended this way. Makes me want to cry. It was not a lie. Is this really goodbye. Makes me want to die. Never thought it would hurt so much. One more chance is all I ask. For your forgiveness with all my heart. So we could live our life just like the past. Still you remember the day. When time passes slowly. The way we live our life happily. Why is it ended this day. Makes me want to cry. It was not a lie. Is this really goodbye. Makes me want to die. Still you remember the day when I'm with you. Girl it hurts me more then you knew. Still you remember that day when I'm with you. At least I did not die of broken heart. Is this really my fate. To be lonely for what I have done. Please give me one more chance. You won't regret it this time.

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